At the time of writing I was in reflection coasting asking on ethereal castors if Cannabis. I am a little bit unique because I have experienced being the proverbial "Show Pony." The experience for whatever reason granted overwhelmed me for a bit. I'm just a regular dude who didn't want to die and especially didn't want to let my brothers down. No Hero. I have the ability now from time passed to observe a larger picture. The battlespace now encompasses an understanding of who makes the calls or who issues the orders. From the top down all the way to those of us who implement or better yet shore up the racket. I can see the different motives, the greed, the wanton disregard for patriotism over self interest etc. But though I can now say assuredly "Wait a minute!" I can do so without bitterness or resentment. I have no sense of betrayal. I know why I do what I do. I am different than most and adjoined to the best by the integrity I applied to the ideology I believe in. I'm in it for that intangible. It is mine. Now I have a voice. Now I see better. Now we all do.

I got the Naltrexone shot for the same reason. I don't ever want to quit drinking but I travel so much and hang with good friends who are Alphas like us. So you know how it goes. 0-100 ! My body gets pissed off at me after my epic binges. Anyways I'm using it to get into shape both physically and mentally. There's a time for libbo and there's a time for work. It's a productivity injection. A great tool. Give it a try if you're looking for a solid uplifting move. Workout. Don't be a fat fuck. Take time off from drinking. Don't be a drunk fuck.

You capture it well. I was sitting there with you reading that.